:-D
i made a damn good fob for (day before) halloween. that's right. i'm going to be a fob for halloween.
and what are you going to be?
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Saturday, October 30, 2004
guess where i was?
inside your head. i learned so much about you-- you'll wish i had never entered it.
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first things first: lunar eclipse on wednesday night-- exceptional. loved it. (by the way, thanks for the call. would have missed a pretty part of the eclipse without it.) and today, the clouds were brindled, so that the moon came in and out of view. when a chunk of cloud was close enough to the moon, there was a rainbow effect. way awesome.
this week feels as if it is better than the last. i'm careful there, to not say that it's an "easier" week, because it's most certainly not. i had two midterms, to start. but it's just been a friendlier week for me. and halloween is in two days. i know kevin is happy :) and for those going to the homecoming dance, i hope you have a great time.
i've been writing poetry, though. it's been such an outlet for escape the past couple of weeks. when my life overloaded in schoolwork and my job, i still had this outlet to rid of my problems verbally. i don't necessarily think that writing about your life and its problems gets the problems out of the way... but i am a firm believer in the fact that releasing your "bad energy" is better than sheltering it until it explodes on its own. and i am so glad i have this art to lean on when i need it.
speaking of, i also have relied on music for emotional release as well. sometimes, i really think music is this miracle drug. take that as you will. i owe it my life.
trick and treat!!
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Thursday, October 21, 2004
today sucks. it can only go downhill from here, too.
... happy 200th post. so much for an enthusiastic post.
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Wednesday, October 13, 2004
... i was feeling fine two seconds ago. i wonder what happened to me. now i'm feeling down for no apparant reason, listening to sad songs. and it's not the songs' influence on me that's making me feel this way. i know what this didn't branch from; but i don't know what did cause it. it feels as if someone rummaged through my secrets, took one, and shared it with everybody (this isn't the problem; i don't know the problem). you know; that kind of betrayed feeling, that black splat on a white canvas...
and then, there's my schedule which is going crazy just sitting there. wake up. class. class. class. meeting. class. dinner. homework. meeting. sleep (subject to change). over and over again. and then again.
i'm thinking i need variety.
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Tuesday, October 12, 2004
is it weird for someone to suddenly have a cultural enlightenment, where one just finds a sanctuary within his/her own culture to which he/she can relate? i have one of those.
i was born in japan, but i consider my home here, in california. of course, that is not to say i have completely abandoned what would be a huge chunk of my identity. my motherland is japan, my home is here. i still cheered for japan during the olympic games this year. i'm still a japanese citizen. i don't plan to lose that, either. this is not to say that ethnicity and culture have to be used as an excluding tool, where someone who is not of the same background is not worthy of someone's attention. but i'm also sure that everyone has found a comfort zone within the same ethnicity as their own.
if any of you have been checking my poetry site, you already know what i'm talking about. i've been writing in japanese lately. i've only been listening to japanese music for the past week or two (as one would find evident if he/she went to my quotes site), and it just makes me relate to my japanese heritage. i've always taken it for granted, whether it be for the better or for worse, i've known myself to be japanese. i remember when i was in elementary school, the only other black-haired kid was a chinese boy. i didn't feel excluded or anything; in fact, race or ethnicity was not a huge issue for me. i appreciate the diversity even more now (trust me; to be a resident advisor, you have to love diversity). and maybe that's why i appreciate my own culture, through respecting and accepting others' cultures.
i love being japanese. :)
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Thursday, October 07, 2004
happiest birthday to kevin manahan :) my little boy is growing up so fast! heehee. miss you, baby quack. have a good one.
your mommy,
mai
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Wednesday, October 06, 2004
hooray for no time!
this has been such a busy week, and it's not even half done. i can only find leisure time at 2am, and thus, i cut back on my sleep, which isn't quite a good thing, either.
but i still love my job. i love it, so i can not only tolerate the hardships, i can accept them.
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just a "letting you know" post for all those who care.
my calendar has been updated with all my resident advisor shifts and class times. get a hold of me inbetween those times. (updated september 30, 2004)
my poetry site has also been updated. it would be great if you could leave comments on the newest two poems. they are a couple, so if you go to read them, you'd have to read the older post before the new one. (updated october 1, 2004)
story of the year concert: in three short days!!! i'm way excited.
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